i'm tired

last week i took a good long look at myself and noticed something.... i'm FAT. it's true, my lazy comfortable lifestyle has caught up with me. i've been packing on the pounds for quite some time now and it's not like i haven't done anything about it. two years ago, i joined a gym, and i do pay attention to what i eat. but i've also had phases of lazyness and bad-for-me foods which is so comfortable and easy, it seems they've won the battle. so i've decided to finally do something about it. i've spent most of my twenties chunky, and now that i've hit that thirty mark i'm not about to start them the same way.

two weeks ago, i went to the gym, sadly to find out it was the 5th time i had been there in the last 6 months. a coincidence that my trainer had checked on me that morning.... strange eh? it was meant to be. so i made an appointment for a fitness evaluation that following sunday. long story short, i'm the biggest i've ever been, and it was a huge smack in the face. it shouldn't have been considering i do know what size i wear, and it too is the biggest i've ever bought. but it was, i think it was the poundage number that got me. i guess in my head as long as i was under a certain number it wasn't all that bad. well, i hit the magic number (of course that number included my workout clothes and shoes), hint- never weigh in your clothes and especially your shoes if you have to... the best time is first thing in the morning while you're tummy is empty. but no such luck in the gym with a trainer at least i hadn't eaten anything yet.

we set up an aggressive workout schedule, his plan for me is to be at my desired goal weight by the end of august. yep, it's that aggressive, let's see if i can do it. so the reason i'm tired is my first week of "homework" he's given me, which is really "gymwork". i've worked out hard in my past workouts but not consistantly like my new plan of attack. thinking back it is as hard as my old track coach used to work us to get ready for the upcoming season. it was a nightmare! this week has been nothing short of those memories of when i was a svelt athlete. thinking of how hard this week has been, i just might make it by august, it seems like a fairly attainable goal.

my homework so far is hard-core cardio 6 days a week with the addition of weight lifting 3 of those days. friday is my off day, no gym. i'm really looking forward to tomorrow and a night of no gym. at the same time i already feel guilty for not going tomorrow. i won't bother with the details of my workouts other than, one of my friends who is in awesome hot shape couldn't keep up with me, even after 6 months on the sofa.... i am still a competitive athlete, this time the competition is with myself. the other part of my homework is to write down everything i eat. everything. i've been entering my intake and activity on an online food diary, www.fitday.com. on sundays i'll give my food diary to my trainer to evaluate. accountability is going to be the key to my success. well, that and to actually see results.

so we'll see on sunday if my first week was successful... because i'm really, really tired.

update- i've also joined www.peertrainer.com, for added tracking and support! thanks for the link steak!