It's Official, I'm a Junkie

So, I went to the doctor yesterday about my "brain shivers", obviously in a panic. He said that he's aware of these side effects but I'm the first patient that he's ever had experience them. He said they should be better in a week, and no more than two weeks. To lessen the side effects I have a weeks supply of Valium. I was reading that it's treated for alcohol withdrawl, some other junkie stuff and for my problem, seizures. I took some last night to see if I'd be able to function at work... It made me feel real mellow, and it got rid of the tiny electrocutions in my head. Seriously, this is sooooooooo embarrassing! I'm a junkie on withdrawl meds....

I'm mad and I'm depressed. Depression runs rampantly in my family... I went for help, got a drug that didn't help me, the more and more dosage was prescribed, the worse and worse the side effects I had. I won't go into those. So, I decided I'd rather be depressed than have what was happening to me from the drug. Now that I'm weaned off the drug, I'm having wicked withdrawl symptoms that is worse than all of it combined! This sucks!